There are many types of recovery for an eating disorder. Just because you are eating everyday does not mean that you have recovered. Eating is only part of the recovery. What about, your mind. Do you still have negative thoughts?, so Thoughts of killing yourself? Thoughts that you are still fat, ugly, stupid?
You need to change the way of your thinking. I know that this is not easy. You just started eating something every day, and changing your mind is the last thing you are thinking about. But you have to change your way of thinking in order to move on.
I didn't order out pizza, for years. I didn't think I was worthy of carry out pizza. I think about that and now it sounds so stupid to me. I hated myself. I thought I was stupid, unworthy. I didn't want to leave the house. I slept years away, waiting to die.
I am still here. I ate crackers or bread to so I wouldn't have dry heaves. Those are the worse. I had terrible headaches, sick to my stomach and had no energy. Food was my enemy.
I didn't start recovery until I started to change my thinking. GOD saved me. GOD healed me.
I went to doctors and they told me there was nothing wrong with me.
My family thought I was crazy and wanted to institutionalize me. I had to get distance from my family, and live totally alone, no friends, no family so I would not be institutionalize. That was when GOD could talk to me and I could hear him.
I hope that you don't have to do something so dramatic. We all need a support system. You have to get to a point where you want to live and start looking to GOD. GOD is the only one who can heal you.
In my book :
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I survived Sexual Abuse www.amazon.com.dp.B00X5080MW
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Your past does not define you. Stop looking back and look forward. That is something I have to remind myself everyday. My Past Does Not Define Me.
I am working on a memoir of my sexually abuse and what manifested in my life because of that. I urge you to journal. Grab a notebook and write down your thoughts and feelings. Writing has kept me sane. If you want to draw, write songs, anything to get what you are feeling and thinking out on paper or through song or art work. Don't keep in buried inside. You don't have to show it to anyone.
An eating disorder was what manifested from sexual abuse. I also have been a cutter. I am now ashamed of that anymore. I have been through a lot and you might of been through worse than me. I want you to know that you are not alone.
I am a voice for people who can not speak for themselves.
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So let me know what you are going through and how you are recovering. We can help each other. You are not alone.
Don't be a victim anymore. You are stronger than you think.
What are you doing for your recovery? Leave a comment and lets get out of the darkness.
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